When kindness exceeds its limits
Warning: This is an emo post.
This is one of the instances in my life where I have to say, “it’s enough”. I can’t understand why other people can’t appreciate and recognize what you are doing. Urrggghh.. I can’t find the words to say. So here…
- You joined this organization in college hoping that this organization is the perfect venue for your skills.
- The first few months (or years) of your org experience was heaven. You went to a lot of places, did a lot of things, and most of all, you enjoyed a lot. You were given assignments and duties which helped you develop your skills.
- You worked hard hoping that after your first year in that org, they will give you the position which best suites your skills.
- Then later you found out that the position given to you was the position you least liked. Then you started to question your skills and capabilities. You began to feel insecurities beginning to lurk within you.
- Then it became a cycle and was repeated the following year. You did not go against the system. You decided to ride with the system.
- You continued feeding the org with your skills, yet, you did not ask anything in return.
- And now you are leaving the organization, and tried keeping all the bitterness you kept for the last three years, you still find yourself longing for more.
- You find leaving the org hard. You find the need to share more.
- You were again, exerting a lot of effort for the last project you can contribute for the org but the org seems to neglect your efforts.
Until now, I can’t manage to fix my messy thoughts. My brain functions badly when I’m angry or disturbed. grrr..
I already approached someone from the org and told the person I will discontinue the project this week. I guess I’m approaching my limit.
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I just hope the money I’m waiting arrives today. I need to replenish my bank account after that expensive Manila trip last week. Tsk tsk tsk.
hehehe… ok pagka singit ng link
.. hehehe.. ok lang yan.. ganun talaga ang sobrang mabait 
Leave now winston. Burn your bridges.
And yes, move on and breathe easier.
this org is definitely not the sole determiner of what you’re capable of that’s why you should never question your skills despite being left unappreciated.. you’ve shared enough i believe.. maybe, it’s time that you leave them to tie their own shoelaces..
halos di ko napansin ang link. haha
@benj – astig no? mag kasing kulay lang kasi.. hehe
@bariles: thanks kuya. that’s the best i can do for now
@fb: thanks fb.
@benj, @jehzlau: hahahah..di ba halata? cool.
I feel partly to blame. I have been trying to get the scanners, but with my ojt, I just can’t find the time or space to look for cheap ones. I can’t even use the internet at home any more.
I know the least you want right now is reasons, because I know you’ve either had very little or very few of such during your stay with us. But the damage has been done, and for now, I guess the most logical and moral thing to say is sorry. I owe you a lot of apologies.
But just so you’ll know, I am very grateful that you have been part of Kalasag. You were probably very disappointed with a lot of things by staying, but for what it’s worth, a lot of people are going to miss you terribly. It’s not worth much, but I hope it reminds you that your presence as a friend and colleague was of more importance to us than your skills (though I should say your skills have been of extremely great help, such that no amount of thanks could ever express the extent of our being grateful).
see? maski ako nasisiraan ng bait.
“very few or quite a lot.”
Sorry ulit.
Peace!
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separation anxieties? Get over it. Yeah! Move on!
@aethen: definitely no. hehehehe.
I think there will always be situations like that in any environment, Wins, whether you are in school, in the office or even at home. Either you bend or break, the decision is yours. Cherish the good memories and be happy. That’s all that matters.
@dulce: that’s the best I can do ate. hehehe. thanks for the advice.
ngayon ko lang nabasa toh ah…anyway i hope ur okay now.(“,) u know we love you! sorry kung nangyari yun…u know naman how our life in the org goes…xoxo